Final Score: Universe that is ever against me:5 Chris:0

Most of the time, I experience myself as having 'luck' in waves. For a single girl, 'Luck' is the random moments where you must be having a good day and you nab a few (as you see them) gentleman's eyes and you are able to trade numbers. Well.. my Luck comes and goes with the Zodiac sign.. maybe every fourth quarter??

Something about great physical exercise really has proven to help me feel so great about myself emotionally, and physically (and I do mean the noticeable lift in the backside). And it does help that this phase happened to be around my birthday so I was very much in an excited and festive mood. In the course of a month, I happened to catch the eye of 5 would be gentlemen.

Now...WWMMD?? (what would Ms. Manners Do?) Well, I would like to think that she would not mind that several men were courting a lady, as long as she acted like a lady the entire time. (and yes I did!!). But that is something different in this decade that is controlled by Social Media. I'll write in detail each of their stories in later posts, but the important thought here, is that out of all 5 of them....I still lost. That's a damn shame... But what I didn't lose was my integrity and my morals. I decided to go on this journey of looking for my future Mr. Gentleman in this manner - old fashioned, allowing a chase, the courting period, and importantly, not making things so physical. What that taught me is that I should not be soo upset about my final score. There are numerous metaphors I could apply here. 'There are tons of fish in the sea', 'You have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince', 'Behind 1 success there are a thousand failures'. WHAT THE HECK EVER!!

I figured out that this path that I am taking is much harder than I thought it was going to be. I am not actively looking but letting it happen. I am trying to find out what I really want and not hiding myself in the process. I did that in my past relationships and well...I don't have them anymore. They did not turn out very well. The thing that I must find is Patience. It's hard though when your closest friend has found love, marriage and children in one gosh darn-it year. And where I love her and I am excited and happy for her and her family, there I am back on that couch, with the only invitee is Yellowtail Sangria.. Yes. That is her name..

Sincerely,
Christianna

Bringing Chivalry Back!

I do not believe that Chivalry is Dead. I believe that along the way of Feminism, women becoming more independent and equal to men in the home and in society, this idea of men not having to be so much of a gentleman or romantic became acceptable. Well, cross my heart I do believe that Ms. Manners is rolling in her perfectly ironed chiffon lined coffin. Now I'm not a prude... I do believe that there can be some level of equality.. offering to pay for dinner (at least offering ladies) not asking for things. But really! what is wrong with asking that a guy do a little chasing? Having respect for a woman in that they want to actually get to know them? Why must you mistake me for 'Booty Call' and not see that I am 'Wifey'??

Again, don't get me wrong, I'm not looking for someone who will be the main breadwinner, the one who drops roses to me on a daily, or remember the anniversary of us meeting. I just want you to make the first move and ask me out on a date. Have a conversation with me that does not only include sex. I want to feel wanted. Trust.. you may get more than you asked for boys...

I wanted to start this journal as a rant.. but as I was preparing myself for my Friday single girl night in party (which you prepare by obtaining a nice inexpensive bottle of wine, a cupcake, Say Yes to the Dress, comfy sweats and only inviting some silly socks to the party), I realized that I have been wanting to transmit my dating experiences. Yes, this is completely NOT an original idea, but there are therapeutic properties in writing down our thoughts and making since of our experiences. I hope to use this tool as that and hopefully add a laugh or two when being confronted with debauchery worthy of a Tyler Perry movie.

Enjoy!
Christianna Bordeaux